Saturday, December 31, 2011

`Tis the Season

                                                       
             
Ahh the Holidays....are OVER.  Thank goodness.              
I know how Scrooge like of me, right?  But I can't help it,
because I swear my gift giving list gets longer and longer each passing year.
It's not that I don't like to give- I love to buy gifts for people.  

But 15-20 people to shop for??  And that's only immediate family??!!
For a girl on a "new family" budget, who is unemployed, it seemed hopeless.
But somehow it all worked out, as it always does.
I am grateful we have such a big family but sometimes, especially during the holidays...
it gets a little overwhelming.
You see, I want to give gifts to everyone!  Not just any gift, but something nice. 
Something they will really like, something they want or need.  
Something they open up and jump up and down like a little kid and squeal....
yay, just what I always wanted!!!!!!!  
(Yes, I know, I have high hopes)
Then I have this idea I have that it has to be expensive or why bother?    
It is not until there is a shortage of funds, 
that we focus on the holidays as being a time for
spending with those you love,
being grateful for what we have, 
and enjoying the season.
It is also the season of giving, and how could we forget that part?
I think the holidays should be about family, sharing, and love-always.
Not just when funds are scarce.  

Given the current state of the economy a lot of people have fallen upon hard times. 
But there are so many other ways to give, if you don't have money to spend.

I want my son to know what the holidays are all about, and to me that means....sharing.  
Sharing what ever it is that you have....
you talents,
your time,
your love,
your friendship,
your toys,
your food,
your home,
and your heart.
I was at this mall this Christmas season, and I noticed something that I hadn't before.
Maybe it's always there, but this year I noticed.
I saw pictures...multiple pictures on store fronts of people with gifts smiling and happy.
They are probably always there right?  Maybe.
But what I saw was....things & gifts= happiness.
Not in my experience.  
Those are not the things that matter.
Those are not the values I want my son to learn.
I want him to know that some kids don't get gifts on Christmas. 
Some can't afford a Christmas tree, or even food sometimes.
I don't ever want him to feel entitled to anything.
I want him to feel blessed and happy to have the life he has,
and that success is not measured by the number of possessions one owns,
but by the love his heart, and the way in which he shares it with the world.


All to often I hear: "I want to give my child all the things I wasn't able to have a child."
You have heard people say that right?
Then I asked myself well... what didn't I have as a child?
Did I have a tree every year at Christmas? 
Yes.
Did I get presents under the tree from Santa?
Yes.
Did we have food to eat?
Yes.
Did we have clothes to wear?
Yes.
Did we have a bed to sleep in?
Yes.
Did we have a house to come home to?
Yes.
Then what would I give him that he doesn't already have?
Stuff??
More toys?
More expensive toys?
Expensive clothes?
I know that not everyone had these things growing up, I am not suggesting that we all did.
My point is that I think we get all too consumed with things, and content, and quantity 
rather than what really matters.
I have peace when I remember.....
"I have everything I need all the time"  
and the only time I struggle in life is when...
I think things should be different than they are.


I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!!!  
Our's was the best yet!!! 
It was our first Christmas with our precious little Logan......
Here's a look....


Santas Lil' Helper 

Christmas Baby
Posing for Mom
Opening his first Christmas gift from G'pa
Reading with Daddy...
Mommy's favorite gift....
Christmas Tree at Grandma's
Kisses for Mickey
Playing with cousins




"Intense love does not measure, it just gives."
~Mother Teresa


Love and blessings to each and everyone in 2012,
~Misty


Thursday, November 10, 2011

Baby Inspired Living Room Decor

I remember  the time that I once declared…(before I was pregnant, and probably even during)
that if you came into my house and saw my living room, you would not be able to tell I had a child living there.   Foot… meet mouth, insert here.   This is what my living room looks like today…


…and I love it, I love finding little tiny socks in my laundry,
teething rings on my bathroom floor,  bottles and spoons in the sink,
pacifiers in my purse, and seeing  soft blankies and stuffed animals all over the place!! 
 Now, why did I ever say such a thing  you ask? 
Well, for those of you who don’t know,  I am a "neat freak”, a very proud one I might add. 
I maintain a very clean, well kept home. 
Its madatory actually.
Kinda borderline OCD. 
Seriously.  
And  I wasn’t about to change my ways or my living room d├ęcor for  ANYONE!!!  
So pretty much every night before I go to bed  a few things must be done:
I adjust  the  towels that hang  in my bathroom so the bottoms all hang at same length.   
I straighten  picture frames, fluff the pillows on my couch, and fold the throw blankets. 
I line up the remotes on the coffee table side by side, so they are touching.
I make my bed every day, even if is 7 at night, and I am about to crawl in soon.   
I straighten my rugs, push in chairs at the table, and wipe the counters.
I put all his toys in away his toy basket, and his books on the shelf.
I put away all the baby gear:
bouncy seat, walker, swing, highchair, and play mat...
in their respective homes...either pushed up against the wall or under the kitchen table.
Thats what I do DAILY.
Here are some other random facts about my organizational OCD... 
I make sure I organize my baby food jars according  to type, in a straight line,
labels facing forward so I can see them all.   
Veggies on the right, fruits on the left.  
I do this in my pantry and my fridge as well. 
I like to see all my food  and  products when I open the door
I think its weird if you don’t have bath rugs in your bathroom. 
Specifically this one….bathrooms with out them just look a bit off in my opinion….. 


I will not wear open toed shoes if my polish is worn or chipped,
and I don’t think anyone else should either.  I like my water room temperature,
 the same way I liked my alcohol.  
It takes me 2 hours to drink a cup of coffee…
because there is nothing like the first cup of morning coffee.  I just like to think I make it last by taking  forever to drink it.  Like this morning…I got my coffee at 9:30, its 11:30 and I still have it. Kinda gross, I know.

With all the many ways, and counting.... 
  my little one has changed my life,
I still have retained very much of me, and who I am.
I was worried that I would lose myself, once I was gifted this precious bundle of life.
Because that’s what you hear….
People would tell me  how much sleep I would lose,
How insane I would become as a result,
How my social life would disappear,
How little time to myself I would have,
How long things would take to get done,
How much money I would spend…the list goes on.

But none of that even compares to how
completely fulfilling
and beautiful
and wonderful
it is to be a mommy.


Its was true, I have lost some of myself,
The cynical, selfish, and unforgiving parts of me.
None of which I care to take back anyways.
and  yes, there is a part of me who is still a  bit crazy
but amidst my crazy,
I made room for change…
for love…
for this tiny little person who has taken hold of my heart…
my life…
and my living room.
and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Courtesy of: Pinterest


 Love,

 Misty

Disclaimer:  I know I am not supposed to start a sentence with and, but, or because.  BUT- I have always wanted to.  Just wanted to let you know that I knew that.  The end.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Through New Eyes

Mommyhood has taught me so many things
 And has changed my life in more ways than I can count. 

Courtesy of: Pinterest  Nichelle Killian via etsy.com


Here are just a few….
1.       My body will never look the same since having a baby….EVER.  Surprisingly, I am okay with that.
2.       I have compassion for other moms who chase screaming toddlers through Target, and  I don’t look at them in disgust anymore. 
3.       Joy comes in the simplest forms. 
4.       I actually stop and watch the trees, and the birds, and notice things like ceiling fans and wall art.
5.       I have long conversations with strangers in the grocery store, who stop to say hi to my little one.
6.       Baby’s first trip to Disneyland….(not only was  I was sick with a cold, and forgot my stroller at home, good job mom!! ) we only got to go on 2 rides,  stopped about 27 times to change diapers, put sweaters on, make  bottles, find pacifiers, and scope  out quiet places to nap….and it was still the BEST time I ever had!!!
7.       I am more aware of my behavior ….what I say, and what I do because I know that my little one is watching.
8.       Most of my choices I make are not based on self any more, I always think, how is this going to affect my child?
9.       More and more often I leave the house without makeup or hair done, so I can spend those few extra moments cuddling and playing.
10.   I have acquired so much more  admiration for my own mom, for all of her worry, sacrifice, sleepless nights, unconditional love and understanding  she has shown me throughout my life.
I never knew how much she loved me, until now.  She would probably argue that I still don’t know…..she just may be right.
To all the Mom’s out there who can relate,
Who have been there
Who may be there now
For all the Mommy’s to be
As we set out to see that our children have  fulfilling  and meaningful  life  experiences,
Lets teach them to be kind, loving, caring,  compassionate people….
who have values, morals, and standards
who treat people how they want to be treated
who stick up for the smaller people

who stand up for what they believe in

who never give up on their dreams

who inspire and encourage others that anything is possible

who are kind to all animals, and gentle with the earth

Leaving this world a better place  than they found it,
and then passing  it  on to their children.

Cheers to us!!
because we have a HUGE job...
 with great responsibility...
one that I take very seriously
and today, there is nothing better in life, than hearing your children laugh.... 
 seeing them smile.......
  and watching them sleep…..
 How lucky are we????

“The most important job in the world is that of a parent” -Unknown


Love,
Misty


Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Letters To Myself

Since I am trying to stay in the present moment, I don’t want to say: this week, or this month.
So I will stick to right now. 
Right now things are tough for me, and I don’t always like to admit it.
I am good at pretending everything is okay when its not. 
I don’t really like that about me, but its part of me so I try to embrace it when I can.
Somedays….. like yesterday, I let my mind get the better of me, and it takes me hostage.
I tell myself that everything is wrong, and its NEVER going to get better, I am not good enough,
and I am not doing it right.
Here is the truth: I am having trouble managing my finances.
There I said it.
It doesn’t feel liberating….
Yet.
It doesn’t feel good at all.
I’d rather eat glass than admit to that.
But part of the reason I started writing again was to share honestly my thoughts and my life with people.
No one ever said it would be easy, but it they said it would be worth it.
I can’t see that part of it right now.

Courtesy of: Pinterest

But I am holding  on to the belief that it will be beneficial at some point.
What do I do when I have trouble with something…..
I buy a book. 
Yep, I do. 
I have lots of books on lots of different things, that usually reflect the time in my life
that it was purposeful. 
But this time I didn’t buy a book.
I didn’t really do anything for awhile but complain.
But, I have purchased a web tutorial from the Daily Om
Fabulous website by the way, very up lifting,  inspiring, and positive, they send me daily affirmations, which I seldom read because  they are usually pretty long.
But every so often I will read them and it’s always just what I needed to hear at that moment.
So the tutorial I purchased is called Heal Your Money Karma
Oh,  have I started it?
Of course not!
I bought it months ago, and it sits there.
Maybe one day I will start it.
……and so goes the way in which my thoughts run away with me,
I should have finished that by now.
I don’t do enough laundry.
I eat out too much.
I should  get organized.
My closet is a mess.
I should fit into my size 5 ‘s by now.
I should  exercise more.
If I looked like her, or had her (body, legs, style, hair) then I would be beautiful.
Courtesy of: Pinterest
I should have  finished my Real Estate course by now, I am a slacker.
I should go to bed earlier.
I should  wake up earlier.
I forgot something important at work….
I am a bad employee and I know I am going to get fired.
(Since having a baby, I have  acquired a mild case of Alzheimer’s,
 seriously I can’t remember squat!!!)
I should have more date nights with the husband.
I need to make more of an effort to be on time, to…… ANYWHERE.
I am always late, to EVERYTHING, yes even work.  It’s a wonder I still have a job.
I should be more patient with things, people, life, etc.
I am a bad mom because my son is in daycare, instead of being home with me.
I am selfish because I forget people’s birthdays.
If I managed my money better, I would always be able to buy people gifts.
My credit cards should be paid off by now.
I shouldn’t have spent money on that.
I should have spent money on this.
I eat too much cheese.  (Random, I know)
My son doesn’t have enough <insert whatever it is for that day> playtime, clothes, toys,
 time with Mom & Dad, and he watches to much tv.
Yes he is almost 8 months old and he has watched cartoons since he was 2 months old......
 and I don’t care!!
He loves them.

I could go on, but you get the point.
That being said…..
 Someone whom I admire for her courageous  strength, and  grace suggested
I write a self esteem letter.
I can’t think of a better time than now to do so.
She said “Would you say all those bad things you say about yourself, to one of your friends?”
“No never, that would be horrible” I said.
“Then why is it okay to say them to yourself?” She asked.
“Oh.”  Is all I could reply.
So here is what I would say to myself;  as if I were talking to a friend:


Courtesy of: Pinterest


Dear Misty,

I think you  are so very wonderful exactly the way you are.  Nothing needs changing or fixing for you to be yourself.  You already are.  You are kind, you are thoughtful, you are loving.  You emanate these with your thoughtful and kind gestures toward others.  You are sensitive and compassionate  with  peoples feelings.  You always have been.  Even as a child, you always felt for the kids who got picked on and tried to stick up for them.  You are beautiful right now.  Nothing outside can make you this way, it comes from within.  You area good organizer.  It’s always been one of your great habits.  You always make an effort to keep the house clean. Your son is happy, and healthy, and he always has everything he needs.  You are a good mom, you are cautious, gentle, sincere, and patient.  You do “what it takes” to get things done, regardless of if you want to or not.  You are kind to strangers.  You always try to do your best.  You are creative and intelligent, and other people matter to you.  You have values, morals, and beliefs today.  You are loyal.  You make dinners that are good and choose healthy foods for your family.  You  ALWAYS so delicately  fold your baby’s clothes and put them away instead of tossing them in his drawers, and that is really sweet.   The environment is important to you, so you choose eco friendly products.  You recycle.  You don’t litter. You stay up late to fold laundry and pack lunches.  You buy cruelty free products because you care about animals.  You can see both sides of the coin, and you try hard not to take sides.  You have a big heart.  You want everyone to always feel included.  You hurt when other people hurt.  You are forgiving and understanding.   You want others to succeed.    You see beauty in everyone.   You are a loyal friend, and you keep your word.  You are gentle with peoples hearts.  You encourage people to be brave.  You enjoy being of service to others, and all of the many forms that may take.  Give yourself a break, you deserve everything good that comes to you, because that is what you give. 

Wow.
That was hard.
I feel like the I should list was easier.
I had to think a little more  about these.
That’s what its like when I live in my head, instead of in my heart.
Sometimes it so easy to see the bad, and so hard to accept the good.
To really believe and feel like I deserve all things good.
Because I always feel like I could or should be better.
I guess that’s what makes me, me.  
I am willing to try and let go a little….
In hopes that it will all work out….
because it always does.
To accept what is, and to know, I am doing my very best I can this day.
EVERYTHING doesn’t have to be done right now.
Sometimes cuddling , watching  tv, and having ice cream  is more important.
and......
All that other stuff can wait.

Courtesy of: Pinterest
Love,

Misty

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Little Sister

When  it’s  time to compose a post, I always think it has to be suuuuu-per long. 
But sometimes, less is more.

Saturday September 17, was my lil sisters bridal shower, (she is 28 and yes, I still call her little) .
AND..... it was SUPER fabulous, I must say.
I had a vision.....with lots of help from littlest sister, Momma, and the 'maids, we brought it to life!!!
I had so much fun planning, shopping, and decorating, the night before the big day I could hardly sleep.
I felt like a little kid at Christmas time. 
I haven't felt that way in a long time.
It wasn't until the morning of the shower that I realized....
 how very happy, excited and proud of my little sis I am, just because she is my little sister.
.....and now she is getting married, and she is not so lil anymore.
She is a
sweet
kind
loving
generous spirit
and I am lucky to call her my sister.

Surrounded by love, yummy food, lots of bling, and tons of pink.....
Here are some pictures of the good time we had......








A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost.  ~Marion C. Garretty

"Friends come and go, but a Sisters are FOREVER!"


"Sisters are different flowers from the same garden"


Friday, September 2, 2011

Change & Time & Other Stuff

So I intended to just write a quick little ya know….. and it turned into this.
That’s what I get for taking almost 4 weeks off from writing.
All these  inspirations and ideas swirl around in my head
for so long, it ends up being a mish mash of concepts. 
But none the less, this writing has been very therapeutic for me
something happens when I write. 
I like it. 
So to those of you who
actually read this whole thing….God bless you. 
My hope is that it's at least mildly entertaining for you.
And I am no genius- none of these ideas I came up with on my own, they are compiled lessons
of what I have learned from the many spiritual teachers I am honored to have in my life today.
All of you are my spiritual teachers, and I thank you!!!
I also proof read and edit and blah, blah, and I get to the end....I think-OMG!!
I can’t post this!!!
Its ridiculous, and personal, and silly, or whatever I tell myself that day.
And ya know what?
I do it anyways.
So here goes….

Change takes place over time. 
But what is time?
What is change?
How are they measured?
What relationship do they have with one another?
Deep and profound questions….that to which I do not have an answer for!! 
Haha!!  I tricked ya!!
All I have is  my experience on these concepts,
because I believe that is what they are; concepts.
Concepts that the mind perceives.
Perceives to be good or perceives to be bad.
Because no body puts thoughts or ideas in my mind. 
When a situation occurs, I perceive the situation
With my eyes, ears, and brain. 
A brain that is used to form thoughts, and these thoughts  form ideas. 
Ideas about what the given situation means to me. 
No one tells me what to think.
For example.  When someone is yelling. 
I hear the voice, see their face, and in my mind I tell myself, they are yelling  AT ME. 
Which they very well maybe, but anytime  I personalize a situation
(by adding the at me part  I have victimized myself, and taken my own power away.
“They are mean to me”  “They have lied to me”  “They want me to fail”
I have allowed them to harm me , and I get sore about it.
I want them to stop their bad behavior so I that I will be okay.
In order to change my emotional conduct I must change my thoughts. 
In order to that, I must change how I perceive what is happening. 
So next time a situation like the above said example happens; I can choose to tell myself this :
“They are yelling.”not “yelling  at me”  just  “ they are yelling.”
Ah, well that doesn’t sound near as dramatic  as something they are “doing to me.”
This enables me  to constructively view the situation and handle it
without emotional attachment.
 Instead of thinking he lied tome.  He lied.  
It is really that simple, it just takes some practice.

courtesy of: Pinterest
Now about time.
Time only exists in the physical world.
Change always exists; its not a stop and start kind of thing.  It just always is.
Then why do we   I mean I, have such trouble with change?
I like things to stay the same ……comfortable and predictable.
Therefore I can be prepared for whatever comes my way- Aha!  There it is!!
So I can be prepared!
You see….worrying is my attempt at being useful in a situation
I know is out of my control.
 Worrying, thinking, planning, scheming, manipulating, plotting…
you name it- I DO IT.
 All these things are my way perceiving that I am in control of a given situation.
Perception is a funny thing .
 What I believe in my mind to be true is what I experience.
Its what I create in my mind with my thoughts. 

courtesy of: Pinterest
I came across and interesting hmmm… what should I call this ( I write as I think so excuse my all over-the-place-ness) I guess I would call it a theory:  Yeah theory works, so anyways  the theory I came across went like this:  “Believing  means to think that certain things are true because that’s what we have heard or that’s what we have been told. ( I am paraphrasing -BTW) and Knowing is inherent.  Its what we know because its what we have experienced or felt.”
  I know right? Crazy stuff.
So I ask myself, how much of what I believe is what I know- hmmm….. well not much!!
So how do I know that what I believe is different from what I know?
I figured it when I heard myself inserting a disclaimer like these: 
I heard, or I read, or so and so told me.
The things I know are a little different, they go more like this:
I am whole and nothing is wrong in this moment. 
I am a spiritual being having  a human experience; and everything is as it should be.   
THAT’S IT!!!
When I remember that I know these things:  I am happy, and I have  peace, and I know:
Nothing is wrong and nothing  needs fixing.
When I forget that I know these things and have always known these things, I am in belief, and  I perceive  that I have to make things right, or different, or better, or things are not okay as they are. 
They need to be different in order for me to be happy.
So how does one go about knowing all the time? 

courtesy of: Pinterest
Excellent question.
Well….there is no such thing.
Because all the time is right now.
Its in this moment.
But I would suggest meditation. 
Ahhh..... the daunting task of trying to quiet the mind and listen to its emptiness right? 
Well in my humble experience- not so much.
Trying, in my experience is an act of doing or creating something with intended force.
The dictionary definition of trying is this:
–adjective
extremely annoying, difficult, or the like;
straining one's patience and goodwill to the limit.
Wow, that doesn't sound like much fun.
Meditation has nothing to do with force. 
As its been explained to m like this:  I sit somewhere-anywhere comfortably, close my eyes, and listen to the sounds, and watch the thoughts pass in my brain.  For- are you ready for this???
 THREE loooooooong minutes!!
 What?  Did you say 30 or 3??
3-JUST  3??!!! 
Hey I can do three minutes.
 So that is what I did- for a lot of months too, I was told amazing things would happen.
 I did not believe that statement one bit.
Yeah ok, sure they will. 
Like am I gonna win the lottery without buying a ticket kind of amazing?? 
Well no, but it was true. 
Amazing things did happen. 
The kinds of things you will have to experience for yourself,
it wont do them justice for me to just tell you,
for each of us has our own relationship with regards to the amazing.
So why is the meditation the first thing to go in my spiritual practice???
That I do not know my friends, but to be honest I haven’t had a daily practice in about 2 years.
<GASP>
I will do it from time to time when I feel crazy and then stop again, I don’t know whey I do this
because  I need it like I need air. 
And I feel like I am suffocating myself right now without it. 
So a friend and I set out on a 28 day challenge to do 3 minutes in the am
and 3 minutes in the pm.   
Since it takes time to change old habits  and create new ones we selected 28 days. 
She is doing much better than I, so far-I have been pretty unsuccessful
clocking  3 days out of 10.  Pretty sad. 
So everyday that I forget, or miss.  I am going to start the 28 days all over again.
That being said  I invite you all to the challenge as well, and experience…..
the  AMAZING things lie in store for you.
Do you accept?


"Meditation is the gateway, through which you arrive to the world of freedom"
~Remez Sasson