Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Here goes nothin'

Welcome to my blog!!  My name is Misty Marie Dumas.  Yes, like the writer....Alexander. 
I decided to start this blog as my way of opening my heart and sharing me with others
<The words get stuck in my throat at the very thought of it>
in addition to that experiment.....I also want to share my stories as I navigate my way through the wonderful and often unfamiliar world that I have come to know as motherhood.
I am a new mommy to a beautiful, happy, pudgy little baby boy named Logan Bradley born Feb 3, 2011.

Isn't he the CUTEST??!!!

And here is me......I think its always important to put a face with a name.
(insert smiley face here)



I was inspired to start this blog by few courageous ladies I'd like to give mention to here:
Mom, Myra, Ashley, Adell , Jessie.....(among many others who encourage me to step out of my comfort zone)
I thought to myself, could I be that honest and candid about life?
About MY life to complete strangers?  When I say opening my heart I simply mean being able to honestly share my feelings with people, this has proved to be a challenge for me, most of my life.
and my final reason-------> to challenge and improve my writing abilites.  Its been a while since I have written ANYTHING on a consistent basis. 

Lets see, where was I?? 
Okay so I hold back  ALOT.  I have a permanent case of the "I'm fines" and I stop myself from saying or using certain words because they make me feel vulnerable.
Words like warm, tender, and loving....... words I feel with every fiber of my being, but cannot always say. 
So I am going to start with writing them.   
(One thing at a time right?)  
I used to write alot.  I started writing poems and journal entries at around age 13.
I promise to share some of these writings in later posts.
So how does one go about accomplishing this feat??   
Well maybe this is how, by just doing it!  I have a habit of saying I am going to try a lot of things and never end up following through, or I start and never finish. 
 But a wise woman once told me that when I use the word try, I am leaving myself an out, in case it gets too hard- thank you Jackie!!  I have pre-approved myself to give up. (is that even a word?)
Another reason for quiting before the race even starts is......drum roll please
dun dun da dah- I can't stand to do anything that I am not fabulous at.
Or why try at all other people will probably do it better than I could. 
Well, today starts new action, to erase the old tapes that have been playing in my head for too long.
I am going to do this, and I am terrified. 
Hey, everyone has their fears right? 
No matter how crazy, they are as individual as we ourselves.
I am not exactly sure what it is going to look like all the time or how consistent it will be, but I will never know if I don't try. 
There is that word again. 
So here I am. 
This is me, and here goes the journey.......
I hope you will join me, in my quest to openly share my heart, my thoughts, my view, and my life.
With all of you. 
So here is to my favorite quote of all time:

"Courage is not the absence of fear; but the action taken in the face of it" 
Thank you Gramma

Thank you with all my (soon to be) open heart for allowing me to share myself with you,

Misty Marie

7 comments:

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  2. BRAVO!!!! What a wonderful testament to contrary action. Your stlyle is warm, engaging, inviting - just like You. Love the pics too.

    I once had a colleague, an English professor, who stopped me on the campus courtyard and told me he liked the "voice" with which I wrote. "Oh, I don't think I'm a real writer," I answered. His wyes crinkled up as he replied just one thing:
    "Don't think. Write."
    So, WRITE ON BABE!"

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  3. Love it! Glad to know I'm not the only person that pre-approves my outs! I didn't realize we both had writing in common too but that doesn't surprise me at all!

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  4. misty,

    there is no better tool in the world then the words on the page...over the years, i have found my own personal freedom from the "old tapes that keep playing in my head" and my hope for you is that you do, too!

    thank you for inviting me into your most personal intimate moments and sharing more of your beautiful self with the world!

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  5. Hi Misty,

    What a beautiful blog, you are a strong and special woman and your willingness to share your inner self to us is commendable.

    I really look forward to hearing your stories, seeing the photos of beautiful Logan growing and laughing and all the unknowns as well!

    Thank you for asking me to be part of your adventure, I have always thought of you as a strong and beautiful woman willing to learn with a penchant for caring about those who have fallen on rough times and wanting to be there to guide, be a friend and push through with the positive actions of what life has to offer.

    Congratulations and all the best on your new writings.

    Judy

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  6. Misty, YOU are an inspiration! Thank you for giving us all something to look forward to and learn from. Writing is very healing and I think this is a very brave thing you are doing. Thank you for letting us in on your journey. I love you and admire you!
    -Jesse

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  7. Hi Doll !! I Love this!! What a great way to share your journey through mommy hood!! I will (of course) be following!! Xoxo Kris

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